For those of you wondering, I have survived sleeping primarily in a tent, eating random and unknown foods, and going days or weeks (seeming like years) without showering. But rather, I should reword the former sentence; I have not simply survived. I have learned to thrive in these circumstances, as encouraged by Paul in Philippians 4:12. "I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need."
I have learned what it means to be a sojourner in this temporary world.
God is showing me much more of Himself, not only in the random zebras and gazelles bounding through the African bush, but in His Word.
And He has taught me this: that we all as followers of Christ must choose whether or not for which the gospel is worth giving up everything in this world. There are people in this community where I currently have the honor of residing who have given up all--family, inheritance, comfort--solely not for self-gain, but for the glory of the Gospel. These people live in reckless and undignified abandon, following the direction of God.
So in light of this, I have been introspective in asking myself, would I be willing to put it all on the line to "go to the land God will show" as Abraham faithfully portrays? Do I trust God and His word enough to travel to unknown lands with my hands opened in complete surrender? Can I walk blindly in faith knowing that as God remains sovereign, I give up complete control in knowing the plan of my life far in advance?
Living as such requires me ridding in my heart the sense of self, creating an empty vessel, in which God pours more of Himself, as He remains the only sustenance we crave. And I must realize that this is enough direction over my life. I must be prepared to follow the Spirit, becoming a sojourner in this world, a wanderer with no house but a home in Jesus. Yes, I may live in a tent. No, I may not always know what I am eating. But I will always have a God who provides--Jehovah-Jireh--no more and no less than what I need, as He provided manna for the hungry Israelites. They realized that what they needed was not physical food, but more of God and His purpose.
So my prayer for this community, and for you who have committed to reading all the words of a broken and unworthy human like myself, is that we would abandon our sense of self and put all of our stock in becoming a sojourner for Christ. We may be considered leaders in our community, but we all remain followers of Jesus. We must humble ourselves as Ruth portrays, opening up our hands and whispering that we will follow wherever the Lord leads us. And for those of you who feel God calling you to unknown lands, living in a tent is not half bad.
-Krista (Journey 2015 Intern)